NOTE NOTE NOTE I am not a mental health expert but just a dumb dumb that suffers from Bipolar II disorder that has actively thought of suicide for years but if you are in a crisis please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1–800–273–8255) or the Crisis Text Line (text HOME to 741–741). The fact that you clicked on this article means you want to live. Please, I want you to live.
So, you’re thinking about killing yourself? Well, my instinct would be just to say uhhhhhh “don’t” but obviously that’s not gonna be enough that’s why you clicked on this.
Well, you’re in luck because I am a professional Idiot™ that have thought about killing myself for YEARS and haven’t done it. Wow! Crazy! Amazing! And if an idiot like me can continue living, then you can too!
These steps are just how I deal with it and hopefully it can be helpful to you too. This is also partially as a reference for the future me, just in case. I also just want to normalize these kinds of thoughts. And I say “normalize,” in that you don’t have to keep it to yourself and eventually succumb to the noise of these thoughts which leads to… you know… killing yourself.
STEP 1: Look at this tweet by Kanye West
But seriously though, even though Kanye never released pt 2 to elaborate, the intention behind this is to get out of the environment that feeds to your suicide ideation.
This could be a toxic friend, relationship, or workplace. You shouldn’t just dissapear because these people might be dependent on you. You do have the right to leave but say you need time away and get away.
The fact is you need to get away. Tell them and leave. If they aren’t understanding to your reasons, that means you really needed to get away from them in the first place.
STEP 2: Breath
It’s cliche but if I’ve learned anything in my mental health journey is that the cliche has endured because it has some truth to it. If you’ve never done mindfulness meditation ever, I would recommend you try it.
